So I figure I will start my 6.5 hour journey very soon.
It's a good thing I enjoy driving...
Feeling a little nervous about the school- not knowing what to expect..
Will try and blog when I get time to update how the whole deal is going!
Saturday, September 12, 2009
Thursday, September 10, 2009
"When everything good is happening somewhere else"
Really apprehensive about going away...
Not ready. Not wanting to.
I am looking forward to exploring a city I haven't had a lot to do with.
But, I feel really out of my depth with this placement. I feel dumb. I don't want to be stuck 6 hours from home and 9 hours from Melbourne for 3 weeks.
A lot can happen in 3 weeks- and I know this is going to be a challenging and 'shaping' experience. It will be good for me professionally and most likely personally too...
Doesn't mean I'm ready or wanting to go....
Not ready. Not wanting to.
I am looking forward to exploring a city I haven't had a lot to do with.
But, I feel really out of my depth with this placement. I feel dumb. I don't want to be stuck 6 hours from home and 9 hours from Melbourne for 3 weeks.
A lot can happen in 3 weeks- and I know this is going to be a challenging and 'shaping' experience. It will be good for me professionally and most likely personally too...
Doesn't mean I'm ready or wanting to go....
Monday, September 7, 2009
head's in a good space..
Pretty content and cruisey at the moment. Things have been stressful.. too much work, too much study, too much thinking.. but everything is starting to feel right.
There is a boy that makes me smile- and that's enough for now.
My future plans are looking so much closer and so much more possible.
I'm feeling really content with my own company again. Have balanced out the social life/alone time quite well.. scared myself for awhile- couldn't stand being alone.
While I'm still frustrated in this town.. I have accepted it's the way it has to be for now, and the countdown till I can leave is on!!
=)
There is a boy that makes me smile- and that's enough for now.
My future plans are looking so much closer and so much more possible.
I'm feeling really content with my own company again. Have balanced out the social life/alone time quite well.. scared myself for awhile- couldn't stand being alone.
While I'm still frustrated in this town.. I have accepted it's the way it has to be for now, and the countdown till I can leave is on!!
=)
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
Lonely and dreaming of the west coast..
I really kinda hate this feeling and I have no idea how I've ended up here to be honest.
It's a really distant, misplaced feeling...
-Not sure what I mean to people around or what I have meant in the past...
-Missing the closeness and comfort..
-Lacking a 'best friend..'
- Frustrated at being stuck in this town
- Not ready for another three weeks away with everything up in the air- really not helping the insecurities about the whole deal..
- Making a conscious effort to be chilled. Doesn't that contradict what being chilled is all about?
Head's just in a bad place at the moment.. I think I know what would put it in a better place... 2 different ways it could go..
It's a really distant, misplaced feeling...
-Not sure what I mean to people around or what I have meant in the past...
-Missing the closeness and comfort..
-Lacking a 'best friend..'
- Frustrated at being stuck in this town
- Not ready for another three weeks away with everything up in the air- really not helping the insecurities about the whole deal..
- Making a conscious effort to be chilled. Doesn't that contradict what being chilled is all about?
Head's just in a bad place at the moment.. I think I know what would put it in a better place... 2 different ways it could go..
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